grumpy grumpy grumpy blank white page and a swelling rage

also must study harder dont be a liability to kind friends who might actually see good in me

am at a loss when things clash i dont like my priorities to be tested i cannot go against my resolutions but i cannot miss other things i hold quite dear. just sleep it off i need coffee tmr already.

you gain some you lose some, one year ago it might have made some difference, but things are set in stone now and seeing resemblance from the past i wonder how we grew so estranged.

i am scared to find myself one year later in the same place i am in now, time is too precious.

probably for the last time already, S  h o u s e  in my  h e a r t.
didnt crash much this time, a bit jaded but im still very proud of my house!
artscamp really is special S house swee ah!

last day today sigh i really will miss the school i love the teachers students and all my lovely intern little birdies so much. been sleeping at 530 everyday since this tues rushing project report and presentation now its finally over. everyday im damn shag but its so satisfying and im always really happy after a good day at school with all the ( Read more... )

today i was a nervous wreck
technical difficulties almost ruined me
but students were nice thank god

school is very busy but im very happy. and my lesson went pretty well at least much better than the worst i imagined. was loud enough but too ambitious lesson plan and too much content in an hour but i still managed to finish nonetheless. last week we self initiated a mini sports day running and soccer and badminton in school which was so much fun ( Read more... )

waking at six four five everyday is really sapping my energy and walking around in pencil skirts and elevated heels make me weary too. like i dont insist on going for that many things anymore and i cant seem to make myself go to the gatherings i wanted to. must be age catching up i feel it in my stiff bones. also im quite very stressed about ( Read more... )

 you reap what you sow if its not too late i want to change whats set in stone

1) glad for the company yet saddened to have grown so estranged
2) age is really catching up
3) people remember all the wrong things for the wrong reasons
4) but i will work harder than i think i can
5) hope is a dangerous thing
6) people can be nice if youll let them
7) how long more to pacify myself
8) fear of the unknown
9) because inferiority complex ( Read more... )