i wish i could hug you without you pulling away
i wish i could be everything you need in someone
i wish i could be ok with how everything is going
i wish i wasn't so afraid of being vulnerable again
i wish i could tell you everything 
i wish i could trust you
i wish you thought something better of me
i wish you didn't believe everything you hear
i wish you ( Read more... )

one month....
longer than i usually last  :/

deep deep thoughts about who my friends are
and all the stuff
hmph!@

i'll update again later
currently working on myspace
yes i'm a fgt  -_-

today surely went to hell
too many complications
too much drama
ayyy dios  >.<
no show but idc
i didn't even really wanna go that bad

i ended up eating food with some old friends
some new friends
some people that don't like me
and some people i don't even know
good times (:
i saw a bunch of old friends from coral park
that was fun  :]

i have to wake up early ( Read more... )

I'll be the first to admit that after all of this time,
you're still a permanent fixation in my mind.

and don't you forget,
I waited for you to
come to your senses
but you never did,
and I've never been the kind of person
to focus on what has so obviously
been lost so completely.

you missed the final call,
and in this town, we don't wait around until
It's ( Read more... )

i don't even know what to write anymore
i've grown to hate livejournal so much

internal conflict in my dreams
it was so crazyy
took me a bit to remember
but wow thanks for telling me what i already know  >_<

i just need to get away
::sigh::

i miss the old eddie too
don't worry it's not just you

this cannot happen
it cannot
it cannot
adjsfakfasdjfha

dropout year ( Read more... )

Well I guess I'm addicted to your make up and your lip stick,
cause when it comes to promises you make me sick,
you're not so innocent,
when it comes to men,
you've made your bed so go fuck him in it.

And when you're laying next to him,
I hope to god you catch something,
so contagious from your bed,
since everyones been in it.

Kissing with eyes closed,
( Read more... )

pants on fire?
oh yesss
if only everybody knew
the lies you spoke
loll

today was fun
hanging out with mah bffl
playing jenga and scrabble
while watching movies
we're little kids  (:

tomorrow should be fun
movie with andria and eileen
possible show thing with maria and barbie
and idk what else :O
ima be supa scene though  ;)

asl;djfklasdf
my plans are all fucked
( Read more... )

and it started once again
funny how i saw this coming
good thing i didn't expect much from you

let's face it you have to make a decision
we've put it off as long as we could
but we both know where you stand
and i don't blame you

people never change
they just never do

 
( Read more... )

i'm not here to take away your happiness
i'm just here to take away my sadness