You lose heart, you lose everything.

the concept of a soulmate is something I have been thinking about for years. deep thought and discussions about what exactly it is and whether it really exists or not have still not led me to a final conclusion. I'm not sure why I'm writing this at 3am. goodnight world.

I love YOU.
I miss YOU.
bye (:

you guys should totally add my new lj
if you care that is
kthnx  :)

http://ehdeeftw.livejournal.com/

So I wanted to write a deep lj entry and redo my myspace.  I decided to start here because I have a lot to say.  I am quite pensive and with not many people to distract me, it seems perfect.  I love late night rants.

First of all I don't want to say I told you so or any of that nonsense.  I just wish people would listen to me when I speak.  When I ( Read more... )

"It's not so much about the person you used to be, as much as it's about the person you're trying to be."
I know who I've been and I know who I'm trying to be.  It's up to you to trust me.

Your life may be overrun with relationship concerns today as people enter your life with dramatic stories. Whether it's a lover or just a casual friend, it may ( Read more... )

-I've been listening to Brand New and The Spill Canvas all weekend.
-Oh that sounds healthy.
-Mhhhmmm  >.<

Not getting out of bed, being sick all the time, horrible anxiety, and yes even nosebleeds.  I enjoyed my weekend, what about you?  :)

At least i fixed my brakes today.  That's at least one productive thing I've done lately.

You know how to make ( Read more... )

Am I correct to defend the fist that holds this pen?
It's ink that lies,
the pen, the page, the paper.
I live, I learn.
You will always take what I have earned.
And so aid my end while I believe I'm winning.

Our friends speak out in our defense.
Pay ten deaf ears for two months rent.
We burn their gallows they erect,
and cut the nooses they tie for our ( Read more... )

"If I was her I'd be happy that you're finally coming to your senses"

Yeah so would I );

I can't stop listening to The Spill Canvas.
That's never a good sign.

I'm not making the same mistake twice.
I've learned my lesson.

I know I don't make life easier.
That's not my purpose.

I hope you know I mean everything I say.
And I say everything I mean.

I had all this deep stuff I've been thinking about over the past few days.
But right now it all seems to escape me.

Oh and in case you haven't gotten the point yet.
YOU

I've been having many visions of my death lately.
I am starting to get a tad worried.