I wanted to write this on here so I wouldn't forget what my mom said to me when and after she blessed me at my wedding ( Read more... )

i still want you to approve of me.

I came home to steak (grilled on the patio!!!!), brussel sprouts, carrots, and rice pilaf. Heavem right? Wait! there's more! Elly bought "the prisoner", my current favorite wine, a 2006 zin blend. two bottles of it, one for now, one for later, because she knew I'd been jonesing for it ( Read more... )

alcoholism...a problem? we'll to make it not be one...

wine.

drunk. monday night. 11:16 p.m. maybe i should be meditating more. I'm somehow sure Thay would say this is not the proper use of my time.

goodnight.

love,

me

sometimes i feel like bikkhu's translation of the dhammapada doesn't make sense. or maybe i don't make sense.

either way, this thursday night could hardly be any better.

maybei'll go for the syrah. maybe not. maybe i'll go to sleep, too soon to telll.

too soon to tell. a good line for a song.

good night.

There's something about the university study of an art that makes a person revolted, not wanting to touch that art with a 10-foot-pole. It makes me want to purge the talent from my body, my brain...do what Nina Simone said in her crying interview, and never have gone into the business ( Read more... )

can't wait to go to guatemala.

i'm not sure why it feels like I want to be other places than where i am.

but italy, guatemala, tibet...they all seem to beckon so much more than what's becoming a meaningless pursuit of outer, more cerebral music.

i'd like to meet a buddhist model that would be interesting.

happy weekend. :)

it's official. graduate sc hool has driven me to drink.

i REALLY want to make it through the next two years.

and one more thing:

thank GOODNESS for prozac.

s

you can't really trust anyone. luckily, i can trust E. But everyone else? Not really worth counting on.

it's come to my attention that sex can be a fantastic way to relieve stress. how, you might ask, has this some to my attention? well, it's all i've been wannting to do lately.

you know what i think?

i think "eh".

spoke with alison earlier. she seemed just so surprised by the call taht it made me sad. maybe people just think she's just another pretty face. that must feel like a real hinderance. anyway, she said it might've been the best phone call she's ever gotten. i'm glad i made her happy ( Read more... )