that i was MARRIED to this person...

and as i pack, i think to myself it's amazing how many people came to my wedding compared to how many called after elianna and i split.

maybe i was sick because I hadn't cried in long enough. apparently cry is directly proportional to the amount of time in which you don't cry. lessons learned: cry a little bit every day.

how i'm feeling, from a letter to erin this morning ( Read more... )

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"A lot of couples are totally obsessed with their image and the aesthetics and you two were into each other..."

- my wedding videographer...re: my wedding...he had just split with his fiance/girlfriend of 6 years...

IM: what did you do this weekend?

ME: i mostly spent it try to recover form the shock of my wife telling me she's leaving me

IM: :(

i'm currently existing on a crazy diet of chardonnay, frozen blueberries, and clove cigarettes. And somehow, somehow...I'm making it.

Still alive another day to hurt from my broken heart, grieve of by broken love, and live another day.

that i would have heartbreak great enough to ever write in this journal again. we made it four years. that's it. it's over.

such a bittersweet victory. last night I was dancing and screaming and crying, hugging strangers in the streets...thinking of how I could tell my children of the night Obama won. And then this, prop 8. Here's the letter I wrote to El ( Read more... )