If Only If Only

[inu_ed]

I wrote this to Becca and I am to much of a coward to send it to her

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[pheonixslayer]

You don't think I understand? Are you insane? I've thrown myself into an addiction so that I don't go abosolutely insane. So I keep me and veryone else safe. I'm destroying myself trying to keep them happy...and I guess myself too, but before I really got into the drugs...I layed in my bed, simply WILLING myself to die...just focusing on my heart and the muscles around it to just stop...simply relax...and it felt like it was working occasioanly, but I always feel asleep before I could do anything.

So yes...I do understand. I know what it's like to feel like life has taken everything from you. And I know what it's like tot think it's your fault.

So do i think your suicidle...yes.Do I think your a freak? yes...but does it matter? not really. cause your not the only one.

[inu_ed]

thanks. I think that I just needed to hear someone say it, someone that understands not someone that doesn't care.

Thank You.