i'm so afraid of fucking everything up. my life is an emotional rollercoaster and i can't seem to make myself get off the fucking ride. I hate myself so truely and deeply at times i can't stop crying. But other times i'm so happy. sometimes i realize how good i've got it and i wish i'd stop forgetting. I wish i'd stop sabotaging my relationships ( Read more... )

HOLY SHIT!!! I GOT INTO NURSING SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!

OH MY GOD!!!!

For those of you who didn't know, i figured there would be absolutely no possible way i was ever going to get in.... I AM SO UNBELIEVEABLY EXCITED!!!!!AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I'm not even on a waiting list.........HOLY FUCK!!!!!!!

My grades suck!!! I can't... I'm in

I have a new AIM screen name, because my daddy bought me a super nice lap top because i am a spoiled brat. SO since I can't remember my original password for the inuyasha4 account and creepy anime kids always IM me and want to talk about INUYASHA and bad anime.... I changed my SN. ANDDDDDD that screen name is Tripodthebunny. Don't ask why its an ( Read more... )

So school has started. I'm already stressed out and I haven't even started my Ochem class yet. Its going to be a challenging semester. The good news is, its only saturday and I have all day tomorrow to finish my homework, most of which I already completed. GOOD JOB! Anyway. Nothing very interesting has been happening. All my classes are people ( Read more... )

Gonzaga owes me almost five hundred dollars....AAAAAAAHHHHHHHH. I knew i took out extra money on my loan... but $500?! Fucking sweet. I don't really have anything I need, but I'm glad I'll have a nice cushion in the ole' bank account. And hopefully I'll be able to get that money on monday to pay for tuition at SCC. and it'll work out perfectly ( Read more... )

Got drunk dialed by Tory and Shelley... Thanks. But I hear jake got a song... Where the fuck was my song ya' beeeeatch... I feel deprived... WHINE WHINE!!!!

So yesterday my aunt called to tell us my grandpa's doctors were only giving him a few days to live ( Read more... )

Ok so apparently she just "wanted me to be aware of how much it costs her for me to live here" Ok. Well I'm aware. is anything going to change...? Probably not. She's so weird sometimes I just don't understand her at all. Oh well i guess she just needs to shake me up a little bit every once in a while. I just don't get her. Oh well I suppose I ( Read more... )

I don't know why but whenever i'm starting to feel in control of my life, my mother likes to point out that i'm not and then shove it down my throat and make me feel like I should feel guilty for existing ( Read more... )

So i'm done with housesitting. it was so nice to be away from my house and the drama of my mother. she never says things but i'm sick of just, her. I don't know. I need to move out I need a place of my own. I liked not seeing her for like a week it was nice. I love her but she drives me crazy. And I like knowing my family is close by, but i ( Read more... )