I went through it the past two days. Something I have not felt in a long time ( Read more... )

The moment an explosion of sensation ( Read more... )

Laying next to Thao on her bed...
she is just a few moments away from getting a kiss from me.
she is even closer to getting a hug and my warmth covering her.

Dread. Fear. It's harder...
because I actually care about her..
I leave, doing nothing.
terrified.

my heart wracking in pain.
holding tears back.
what the fucking hell.

and at times ( Read more... )

girl; zack says hi ( Read more... )

girl; i'm afriad if we date i'll lose you as a friend.
Jacob: I am terrified of dating you because I might lose you as a friend.
girl ... oh jacob

I miss and I feel loss ( Read more... )

and another girl messages me again...
it's girl number 3.
she misses me over this break.
oh so far away.
What a fate of fates.
to be so far away.

she goes into my bathroom..
uses it then pauses..
I can see her shadow by the doorway..
she moves my contact case and organizes it..
and my contact solution..
and the counter...
then she pauses... and slightly messes it up.

yea I noticed jennifer.

and I grow weary...
my...
How theists claim ownership over so much
with no proof at all.
Then ask me to prove them wrong.
Then all proof provided, they claim as their own.
A structure stands perfectly fine.
The model sustaining itself.

And sir, it works just fine.

Without god.