Dear Boy ( Read more... )

so here we go again
in 5 hours i leave for my second year of college
im slightly more prepared this time but that dosent mean its still not hard
i dont think it is ever easy to leave people you love

i don't know what i want out of life right now
nothing feels right

also i miss volleyball...alot

there are alot of things i do not understand...
i do not understand my unhappiness
i do not understand relationships
i do not understand my anger
i do not understand my selfishness
i do not understand my bitterness
i do not understand my need for something more when i have everything

i am confused and bitter
this is not good

ive been doing really good the past few weeks
but tonight it all comes rushing back

screw awkward friendships
screw country music
screw drunk men
screw boys who love to mess with my heart
screw summer almost being over
screw little kids and thier dammed birthday parties when im on duty
screw life
screw everything

im not in a good mood.

tonight was probably the most fun ive had this summer
thank you kevinfest 06 for being awesome

i only have 24 hours left until these lyrics dont literally apply to me anymore, however i believe this song defines my highschool experience and my teen years...

I'm gonna stay eighteen forever ( Read more... )

So here I find myself in this place once again ( Read more... )

i leave for the bahamas in about 8 hours
and when i get back maddie will be at my house

the next 2 weeks are going to be sweet action

ive been home for about a month now and i must say that this summer has severely let me down ( Read more... )

life is never what it appears to be
anything and everything has something to hide

i dont know anything anymore.