Not feeling great. Started cutting again. No reason. Pressure from everywhere. School, home, friends, family, everything gettin to me. Pissed off. I making an effort for everything i fucking do. I not in best of moods.

Once again I am left in the drakness fighting for happiness. This time someone else seems to had loskced the doors to keep me unhappy. WHy can't I be Happy? For just one time in my life!!!

Yesturday was pretty awful. Sat was good. went to the cinema with bek. We kissed. I reely unsure if i wanna get into a relationship. Thanx to bad fucking experiences. Won't mention any names though. They Know who the fucking are!! Bill is a back stabbing, arse licking twat. The way he made it sound the other night everything was a fucking disaster ( Read more... )

Right I am gonna put all the past behind me and start with a clean slate! No more Tears. Everything this year will be bett than last. No more cutting. No more eating shit.

Happiness is all that matters!

This may be my last post of 2003.. boy am i glad its over.. i apologise 4 not postin lately not much happenin.. n havent had time...

A NEW YEAR... LETS PUT THE SHIT BEHIND US AND WORK WITH A CLEAN SLATE!!!

Yest. was xmas. Good fun. I got my bass guitar and i enjoyin it. Sister making me reely fukin mad tho. she wont appreciate it. I cant explain. she just pisses me off all the time. i fukin hate it.

anyways grandparents r downstairs so best go.. bitch sister will piss me off again soon so expect a post.

Since she's been back we have barely spoken. I have nothing to say to her. We have nothing in common and basically she makes my life a living hell. She gets anything she wants. Always gets her own way and then has the fucking ordacity to call me selfish. Well to her this christmas i will her my middle finger and a mouthful of abuse. Why wait till ( Read more... )

kinda good kinda bad. Meh

Low at Home. shit at skool. Cant be arsed to go into detail, I just failing at everything., Friends r ok tho.. spose:S

hmmmm.... nothing has really happened. I still sonfused about Bek. But i don't know. I Know its silly but i worried people won't like her. Or think she's ugly. It hurts when people say stuff like that about someone you care about. But i shouldn't carew hsat they think and i wont let myself ( Read more... )