i seriously hate how often i come to the verge of losing my sanity. being in kokomo, not knowing a single soul, NOONE to talk to, three hour breaks between all of my classes, and the HOUR AND A HALF commute i drive daily tortures me to the point where i don't think i'll ever be normal again ( Read more... )

i love my life lately. but i get nostalgic and miss when i used to be happy and social. your boyfriends' friends can't really be called your actual friends. they're way more dramatic than any of my real friends anyways ( Read more... )

somedays i really do feel lucky. i love my life, i can't deny it. i just hate all these sketchy circumstances. that's why i try so hard. i'm making it all change. and one day i'll be pretty far away from all the bullshit and noise that keeps pulling me down. i don't want it to be that way forever. but i'm young and i have to learn to live my own ( Read more... )

it's been a while since i posted ( Read more... )

for some reason i wait until every time i'm in class to start thinking about sex. i think i get so bored in lectures it makes me horny??
hah what the fuck.

i miss josh!

i may be happy. but this is the loneliest i have ever been.
part of me is missing.

no one will ever know how happy i am. i don't think even josh has the slightest clue.

oh, i hate being a recluse!

BIRTHDAY SEX.

there is most definitely something wrong with me. josh is truly my bestfriend. and i'm his bestfriend. we don't have other bestfriends because everyone is all very busy with their own lives. i don't mind this so much, but i do miss cara. josh will never cut it as a girl bestfriend. josh and i have lots of friends. just no bestfriends. idk. we ( Read more... )

i'm pretty satisfied with my life at the moment. my birthday is just over a week away. my mom let me buy wii active. i'm going to finally try and commit to something. i can't wait until i'm small enough to have the confidence to wear cute girly dresses all the time. aw, i love to be cuuuute. sam is giving abby and i a whole palette of eyeshadows as ( Read more... )