so I know lately I havent posted anything well lots of bullshit has gone on, Let me start out by sayin I am glad that "DOC" and I broke up or whatever, because any guy that hits a girl deserves to be castrated. I found it quite fucked up he threatened to call the cops when there was illegal activity going on and if he had done so everyone would ( Read more... )

So there is way too much things to type and not enough time to explain so here are the top ten new events in life ( Read more... )

I am alive and kicking trying to regain my sobriety hmm well fuck them all

So it seems to me that I have been sketched out too much it is time to either go out in the goriest most horrendus way possible and have it on my LJ for all to see, or fall off the face off the earth. Too many people have gotten my game down and are startign to figure out the way I work. HMMMM not okay. Especially when I get threatning text ( Read more... )

Ok so I know this is an odd show for me to be at, and I must admit that I felt a bit out of place on the first night Tech played in colorado (back to back night shows) I was easily ammused by guys trying to look up my skirt, shit they didnt have to try very hard, my skirt was so short that I got into the show for free, but if any of the guys asked ( Read more... )

Lately I have been trying to figure out what it is in life I am missing. I feel empty and sadness overhead. I have been thinking the one thing in life that could make me happy is a gentilman. His name is Ricky and belongs to a band called plastic parachute. I love him more than I love myself, and that isnt even the saddest thing of it all, he ( Read more... )

For the past five years I have been anorexic. I never would accept it into my life, but unfortuneatly I have to now. The saddest thing is when I measure out my food in a measuring cup, and write it down daily means that something is seriously wrong with me. I dont understand why I am so sick and fucked up in the head. I have noticed when I write ( Read more... )

My desires are strong, posessive, cruel, and heartless. I want something that I cant have. It kills me to se that object in which is only a tease. I want it more and will do anything and everything I need to to get it. I feel like trash but know I will never have what it takes to get what I desire most.

I failed at something in life yet again. Considering what I have been through. I have been back to my old yuccky habits of smoking dope and enjoying the high life to numb the pain and sorrow away. Thus far it seems to be working out just fine. Unfortuneately tonight is a sober one. I smoked a ball of dope in 2 days how sad. I reflect on the people ( Read more... )

A man escorts me to a sequestered house in handcuffs, puts duct tape around my mouth and ankles and puts me in a dark room for 2 weeks with out any communication to the outside world. If you havent noticed me not being able to post anything for a while there has been a damn good reason. I went over to this guys house (name being withheald for the ( Read more... )