For what ever reason I do not know why I am ment to stil be on this earth. I tried to take my life after I was once raped agian. I feel like a discusting peice of white trash. What has my life come to that I am the one that ends up the victum of being used and raped repeatedly. I overdosed on meth again. Oh how I missed the feeling of being numb ( Read more... )

Oh my gosh I was to excited for this show. I went down early to see Zach and give him my album of pictures some of the shittiest and some of the best to do as he pleased and see if he threw me on the guest list because I am a poor mother fucker. and he did. I ran into michael he wanted Vikodin and Oxy cottin. I did as he wished and ran home when I ( Read more... )

So lately I have been getting the attention of random co-workers and even venders at mywork. It freaks the fuck out of me when elder men say what up beautiful when they are married and have children my age! but when the grocery manager who has a girlfriend that I am good friends with says it to me I find it flattering ( Read more... )

Ok So it seams that I may have kicked the bucket and I am never on. Part of that is true I am alive and kicking just a bit busy so I need some advice because I have never been in this situation ( Read more... )

So I have been procrastinating for a long time when it comes to completing my assingments, I was reminded I have one week left of school. Talk about oh shit I am fucked as well as stressed out time to pull some all nighters with mountain dew getting shit done

VENDETTA RED is comming with finch, I am stoked but my buddies in PLASTIC PARACHUTE is also coming for the go gos and its the same night NOOOOOOOO IAM FUCKED

Ok I know I am not really updating as much as I should be but still I am alive

Monday night: Mower, subnoize soljas. HoLLY shit was that a great show. I was there for mower. I was really into the show for the first time in a while. I guess it was the screaming, hard core pit and rage. Holly man did that shit rock my face off I thought mower did killer even though they drove from lower altitude. I swear bands come here and ( Read more... )

Ok I know I havent posted in a long time, but I am alive, well barely. I am now spending my time working over 40 hours at the grocery store and going to school full time. I do go to a few shows every now and then, I miss the good ol days of going to a show every night. Well I gotsta sleep DAWN I MISS YOU!!! I dont have messanger anymore

Ok so in the beginning of starting this lj, I had a lot of anger toward this guy named Dylan the former singer of dork. Ok well it was toward the whole band. Well good news I worked things out with them and now we are on the recovery of being good buddies again. Now it is time to work on all the other bands i said fuck off to when I did meth