I am looking forward to the CSI finale. I have been trying to avoid spoilers and I don't know if I am going to be able to watch CBS this week at this rate. What a day Thursday is, with the premiere of the Star Wars movie as well. So do I cut out of work to see SW? Can I survive all that angst on one day? I wish I weren't so busy with reality ( Read more... )

Ok, so it is back to looking bleak at work, but I have decided that I have to let it go. I am going to look around for new work and just face whatever comes. Worrying about it won't help. A lot of crappy things have happened to me lately that have made it hard to see all the good in life. I really don't want to be that kind of person. I want ( Read more... )

"Take me out to the Black,
tell them I ain't coming back.
Burn the Land and boil the Sea,
you can't take the sky from me..."
Josh Whedon

That kinda sums up my day.....

Talk about a head snap week. One day we are being told it doesn't look good for our jobs. The next day someone says it looks like we will be ok, The next day, well, you can probably guess. I have heard people say that you can't take this kind of thing personally. I have never been able to develop that type of thinking or feeling. I guess it ( Read more... )

Life tests. I guess that means two things to me. First it is the little tests that I think life is giving me. Like how someone I know, who is very dishonest and cheated their way to the top, has gotten a very great position and is getting public accolades. The sad thing is the people in charge knew he was a cheat, but let him get away with it ( Read more... )

Ah, another Monday. Since it is usually the beginning of my work week it is usually the rotten day. It did not used to be that way. But management has been sucking the life out of this job for awhile now. To them I am just "human capital". They swear I should think of that term in as complimentary. I must look stupid or something. Re- ( Read more... )

Watching this week's episode of Extreme Home Makeover once again reminded me of how lucky I am. I have a nice roof over my head, not a lot of furniture, but a good sturdy roof, no leaks, no mold, not bad altogether. That is a great show to give you a reality check. It is the only reality show that I like. The rest of them are too mean spirited ( Read more... )

Well, I don't know if anyone will ever read this, but I am beginning my journal today. I thought maybe sharing my anxiety with the ether would be cathartic. Let's see, the big stuff I am worried about is losing my job. The small stuff is that they will kill off my favorite character on CSI. I think I watch too much TV. Or I care too much about ( Read more... )