...I have no clue what the hell I'm talking about. I drink. I smoke. When the people I love hurt me, I want them to go away. When they hurt themselves, I want them to go away.

That's not feeling everything.

I'm signing up for a psychiatry study tomorrow. I'm the guinea pig. If I'm not going to feel everything, I might as well go about it in a much ( Read more... )

I can't believe I ended up incorporating a country song in the title of this one. Just when you think you've hit a new low...Oh well.

I've had 5 relationships my entire life. This isn't really a breakdown of them. Just some things I thought of that came to me, lying down, staring at my concrete ceiling (it's a thought-provoker).

In order from first, ( Read more... )

The title was actually the first thing I wrote, which is a first, but I already knew what I came here for. The title is a romantic mantra, of sorts, that I've lived by for the past ten years. The notion that nothing is more powerful than pain, and that sharing yours with the world...can change it for the better. Both yours, and the world's.

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I'm sure I'll have some reacquainting to do. Either way, I think I'm back for a while. I really haven't written much of anything over this timespan. Just recently started writing on my myspace: myspace.com/sidetrack14. Apparently, the link option doesn't work here, or so I think. I like the changes though.

Reading over my old blogs is a trip. A lot ( Read more... )

I feared that 12/7 was going to be a very dark day, but driving 200 miles on a bed of ice really doesn't give you much time to reflect on shit. Last night was a subconscious effort to sustain the suppression. I had planned on working out, almost to the point of passing out, in a more masochistic than narcissistic way. Plans changed as I was, in a ( Read more... )

30 Seconds to Mars rocked my spine! Leto is the quintessential rock star.

Thanksgiving karaoke at Ben's was a blast. I started off with some "Girl You Know It's True" by Milli Vanilli. The duet with Mike P. of "Aenima" was solid. We showed those fuckers.

I love to sleep more than you.

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This will be my FINAL song about this subject. Thanks to all that have been subjected to this narrow-minded, disposable theme. For those that have not heard the music that somehow makes sense of all this, a link will soon follow ( Read more... )

My hotel room:


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