That mother fucker took my life away ( Read more... )

These sleepless nights are going to kick me in the ass soon! I'm already to the point where I can't function. The lack of sleep isn't helping. I'm so depressed it's not even funny. My anxiety is so high that I continuously shake. All I want to do is be alone and to just die. But I can't be alone because my depression gets even worse. I ( Read more... )

Another sleepless night is upon me, night three of no sleep. Today was a horrible day that I'm not going into. Those of you who know, know for a reason ( Read more... )

This weekend was behind bad...horrible is even an understatement. I never thought it would happen to me, how ignorent! Police, hospital, medication all so scary. I don't know what is worse, what happened or my friend telling me it was my fault. I'm feeling so shitty. I'm constantly shaking, I flinch at everything, I can't focus for more then a ( Read more... )

I'm so conflicted it's not even funny! I don't know what to do at all! I just want everything to work out and I think it's going to blow up in my face! FUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCK!

So I'm getting back into the swing of things. I barely got home from New York because of the snow storm. If my flight would have been a half an hour later I would have been stuck in Cincinnati for two days. Wednesday was a snow day and Thursday was a two hour delay ( Read more... )

I'm in New York right now. doot doot doot -Elliott This has been Elliott's contrabution to everything this morning! Gotta love him! Right now Elliott, Daryl, Sabrina and myself are eating eggs listening to wonderful music such as NSYNC and Backstreet Boys. I'm excited to be in New York, I feel so at home walking down the street ( Read more... )

When it comes to having strong feelings for someone it's hard for me! I have been hurt so many times in past relationships, past friendships and in my family that it's hard for me to be ok with my feelings ( Read more... )

So I bought my plan ticket to NY! Which means I get to see Sabrina, Daryl, Elliott, Adam's, Alyx (maybe?) Lynly and all the GLSEN crew! I'm so excited, and Chan I will send you my flight stuff, but I need your email! I miss all of you so much and I will see you soon ( Read more... )

To all my NEW YORK people out there!!! I need to figure out by tomorrow whether or not I'm coming to NY over break! I have the money, I want to come! Should I? Chan do I still have a place to crash? I LOVE YOU ALL AND MISS YOU!