so amy wants me to forgive alex. she wrote me this long note about how alex and i can "reestablish our relationship" if we can all take responsibility for what happened in london. she hates how two people in her life cant get along. ok, i feel bad for amy. i do. but alex is one of the most horrible people i have ever met in my life. i never want to ( Read more... )

yet again. i'm so tired of this. nothing is ever as different as it seems to be. i'm the constant tho, so it must be me, right? i just dont like being treated poorly. i knew this wasnt a good idea. why did i let myself even for a moment think that it was? i deserve better than this. i havent gone thru everything just to be fucked over by long ( Read more... )

so will turned out to be a total asshole. it makes me so sad to see him do this to zan. how could he have said all that stuff for so long and then turn out to not mean any of it? it truly breaks my heart and makes me personally so scared. all i want to do is go to nh right now. i think i can pull it off. i think some quality kt/zan/becca time is ( Read more... )

so the office manager had a personal emergency and now i am in charge of phones. how i love the working world. well, its not so bad. i get to do half way interesting things normally and theres no homework to do at night so i'm not complaining. i'm also not complaining that i only hang out with 10 year olds. my cousins are so much fun, and i kinda ( Read more... )

that was exactly how i wanted it to end.

so i'm in ny now. why did i not think about this whole not having friends thing in a new city thing through? baaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh.

and i hate how expensive airline tickets are.

i have fridays to tuesdays off.

baaaaaaah.

i like ny, but i really dont like humidity.

i'm done. he terminado. i did it.

i studied abroad. in spain. i've wanted to do this as long as i can remember.

and now. it's done.
how is this possible?

am i different?

i need to pack.
ya esta.

chicas, teneis que ayudarme ( Read more... )

i leave in less than a week. a presentation, a paper, and two tests. and packing.

holy shit. it kinda sucks. i only started liking it here in the last couple weeks. figures.

things i have done today instead of the homework i should have been doing ( Read more... )