interphase 

brutality to reality

or is it the other way?

sensation from manipulation

so here's the deal, my mother and i shook on it. she'll stop "forgetting" to get my work permit/social security papers filled, and i'll start cleaning everything in the house, try and quit smoking (or rather cut down), and by the time the first interum comes out, i'll have myself a job

hell yes

they're the kind that know everyone's last name, that drive around looking for prey, anything something to criticize, they have no dream, everything they say is always the same, they sure talk a whole lot about nothing

tomorrow i'm going to the doctor with joanie, we're prepared for screaming,

there is nothing left to do but sleep.

i feel like my heart is beating so fast, hurting so fast,
time is going so slow,
and i'm just sitting here counting the minutes

continues to smash your face in, peel your skin, your flaky skin that comes off like glue, he sticks tiny needles in every single pore you have
but i still can't feel anything

so, not doing that again.. that may have been the most awkward idea i've had ( Read more... )

there's this void i'm looking to fill. 
countless cigarettes, lazy reads, and constant friends arn't helping, mabye for a day.
    i'm stuck thinking to myself in the late hours- i can't  help but feel lonely.