I just can't stop crying. It's as if someone keeps turning on the faucet to just let it spill over the sink. It happens anytime; I'll just be sitting there and start tearing up. I can't control it; I sob. I just sit here butchering myself, only making it worse because I won't get up and do anything. I just can't stop crying. I just can't.

I don't fucking get it. I had the back door opened for less thatn 10 minutes but obviously it was enough time for the mosquitos to feast on my legs. Thanks! I needed bites all over me. Maybe I'll get a letter from Michael today. It's still early; I've been up for awhile. Couldn't really get to sleep and now I'm past that point, you know the one ( Read more... )

I must admit, Family Guy tonight is fucking fantastic.

I ate Taco Bell for dinner tonight. Awful. I'll be honest, since Michael left I've been a little depressed. These three months were supposed to allow me to better myself while he was gone but in all reality it is making me more lazy. Then that makes me feel worse about myself because I want to be incredible for him. God damnit, watching tv doesn't ( Read more... )

I think I am finally in the mood to write about Saturday ( Read more... )

To all you people who opposed the cut ( Read more... )

Today, I woke up late, didn't run and have yet to eat any protein or anything for that matter. However, I did mail another letter, started on another, put on some clothes, and thought about the rest of the day. I'm about to make a protein milkshake, gosh, and I plan to just do the work out today since tomorrow I am going to Michael's for the entire ( Read more... )

Today I woke up late, shouldn't have done that, and after having a protein milkshake I started to run in my backyard. It's actually a pretty good place to run, nice and big with slopes. I did that for about twenty minutes then I did forty stair steps, twenty lunges, fifty crunches, and 5 push-ups (I hate those bastards). Then I crashed and took a ( Read more... )

They still have 300 million in funds after the cut. Don't get me wrong, I'm not sure if I agree with it or not, but we would use these funds for healthcare for Sept. 11 victims and emergency workers as well as healthcare for other people, plus we would be using it for education. PBS and NPR are pretty good at raising money. This may not be an awful ( Read more... )

I'm home. Ready, not completely willing, to clean my room and start my work outs. I am on a high protein, low carb diet and holy shit have I been drinking A LOT of water. I finally have Michael's address and I am sending him eight letters tomorrow. Well, eight days of letters. My kitty missed me, my puppies missed me, I missed them. Mom says she'll ( Read more... )