"Sometimes you have to put walls up. Not to keep people out, but see who cares enough to break them down"

so ive been holding on to someone hoping that id never have to let go. i hate letting go. I hate goodbye. But its come. its here ( Read more... )

lets see ( Read more... )

So here i am. Made it through the day. Wasnt too worried about it, but i still consider it a decent accomplishment. Plans were to have it at my parents house, but my grandma was having vision problems, so we hopped in the care and did thanksgiving over in clinton twp. It was nice, kinda weird not having a ton of people there...just my family and my ( Read more... )

This past weekend has been kinda rough on me. got a lil scared a couple times. I was uber stressed and even more paranoid and upset. My fear had come true. I had to let go. Its hard to let go. Its scary... and i hate sharing, thats the worst part. I hate roles. I'm really sad about it, but after a good talk last nite i think....i just might be ok. ( Read more... )

so last nite, bobby had a keg at his aparment. i actually drank beer without a fight and without beer pong. And it still tastes gross. But...it works on getting you drunk. I drank a beer and a half and was pretty drunk, but continued to drink. I was hanging out with a lot of people, some i didnt know, but most i knew. megan, some of steves friends ( Read more... )

What is today....tuesday...okay. I have my bearings now. I got my balls on my barbells changed, so they're smaller and look/feel better. its sweet. I took out my navel ring. i dont know if i want to put it back in...maybe later, but right now, kinda seeing what its like without one...so far, theres no difference. I have a knot in my shoulder, but ( Read more... )

Aside from not wanting to really go home this weekend (especially since my family wasnt even going to be there) it turned out to be a very beneficial trip home. I was able to talk to mat. which means we didnt fight, which is something new for us. I really liked it. I know he still doesnt quite feel comfortable around me and that sucks. I hate not ( Read more... )

im drunk. theres things i dont tell people. im sure theres a reason, in fact i could probably write more reasons then things that i dont tell people. im really honest. when im not honest its because im convinced im saving someone from getting hurt. I never get into something knowing that im gonna hurt someone, sometimes its in the back of my head, ( Read more... )

So today has been pretty decent. I got another latte today...i really need to NOT drink coffee...i hate the shaky buzz feeling. But i did it again anyways and im the only one to blame for it. I got really irritable and easily pissed off while i had my buzz...i feel bad for blowing up at people...well most of the people that i blew up at were in ( Read more... )