i started reading...ive gotten almost half of it done....if i could actually concentrate, then maybe i could get something done, however....stupid book. its an autobiography, the guy keeps saying "my INTERCOURSE with so and so.." and i start thinking about sex even tho he just means it was a social interaction. I think im perverted...maybe, ok i am ( Read more... )

this song reminds me of trying to find the courage to jump in a cold pool on a hot summers day ( Read more... )

This is the first time ive been in a consistant good mood in a while. I dont know if its the coffee or if things are actually turning around. I changed some stuff on my journal. The titles, my mood emoticon thing. I think changing things might help moving on....well maybe not moving on, but moving up, trying to reach that point...that point of ( Read more... )

twice in one day, its like a record! actually i just needed to vent. Im having a rough day...make that a rough weekend ( Read more... )

So i had a party last nite...it was a ton of fun getting ready. Greyson...omg, i'll never be able to watch the crow with a straight face (caw! caw! BANG! FUCK I'm dead!) wow....anyways yeah, grey showed up at like...6? and i helped him with his makeup for his kiss band member/the crow, ha ha. it was fun. Then alex showed up while i started getting ( Read more... )

Had a bad day, don't talk to me,
gonna ride this out,
My little black heart, breaks apart,
with your big mouth.

And I'm sick of my sickness
Don't touch me, you'll get this.
I'm useless, lazy, perverted,
and you hate me.

You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Well I'm waiting for my wakeup call,
And everything, everything's my fault.

-unwritten

so yeah, here i am updating again....mostly because i think im going to class in my pjs which leaves me with extra time....to aparently get calls from solicitors on my cell phone...im never answering my phone again if i dont know the number...EVER AGAIN. damnit. sorry...anyway, i think i was in a good mood when i started writing...oh wait no, ( Read more... )

so i studied last nite....i wouldnt say i studied excessively, but i did a decent "start up" job. Which i finished this morning, so we'll see how i did when i take the test in about an hour. I wish i wouldve studied a lil more but i kinda had other things on my mind. Isnt it bizarre when you have to ask a person you love about someone else that you ( Read more... )

went home this weekend. It wasnt as great as i thought itd be. I can count on one hand the number of good times i had. and 3 out of 5 were just spending time with my mom. Stupid dog is so goddamn cute and equally as frustrating. I'm not going to lie, i hit a dog. I cried about it later....but i still hit him...and still maintain he deserved it.... ( Read more... )

I suck at updating this thing. I check it everyday but i never manage to slip in something about my day. So yeah, i'm retarded and have a sunburn in the middle of october. I dont even want to explain its embarressing, literally painfully embarressing. I'm going home this weekend, which i'm looking forward to. I was kinda hoping to hang out with ( Read more... )