always think. how can i make this more interesting... the answer usually comes in manipulation and seduction. i still have the same mind set. i know that it wont go until i let it. im trying to fight this. i dont want to fight it for the rest of my life. its too emotionally consuming. im not 16 anymore. this isnt fun anymore. i want all the scars ( Read more... )

my head is taking me places i really dont want to go. i thought i could just be present. i thought that if i just went through the motions id be ok. i didnt think the things i had to confront were so difficult. im so irritable. i have so much i need to do but all i can focus on is my anger. i went to another meeting last night. i went back to the ( Read more... )

remember me today. im 25 days sober and im not celebrating shit. i dont know why i am the way that i am. why i manipulate everything and everyone in my life. acting like the victim to get support for bad habits. i am an addict. in everything that i do. i am easily corrupted. ive lied to everyone in my life about horrible things. i feel very little ( Read more... )

i found my old journal ( Read more... )

its hard to wake up. i cant move. i cant breathe. i cant think about the future. my thoughts are screaming so loud, i wouldnt be suprised if youve heard them. my heart it being ripped out of my chest. i cant remember the good the way you do. the power and control. i dont want it. just go like you said you would when we were ok. turn your back. i ( Read more... )

i wanna fast foward these next few years. nothing will stand in my way. i know what i want and im going to fucking get it. everything else falls second. well anyways, speaking of priorities, im leaving to vegas now for a few days to get my party on. peace out bitches

.ive forgotten. i used people. distractions. priorities. slacker. memories. nausea. no contact. comfort. phone rings. im sad. stop. no, dont. k, go now. seperate worlds with seperate people. i still love you the way i still loved anyone. so? so much that im not giving or showing and i dont know why. bury me with it. im fun right? im pretty right? ( Read more... )

keep it perfect, keep it pure.... keep it honest. you fucking loser. was it that hard. push. push. push. until you have no one. like before. like your death. i know everything and feel nothing. always some temporary fix. always. nothing is that innocent anymore. i dont think shell ever look at me the same way. and she shouldnt. something that meant ( Read more... )

i never want to spend another day for the rest of my life without her. do you ever have those days where absolutely nothing goes wrong and it just feels to damn good to be true. thats every day. even when shit does go wrong. i just love it. i love her.

thank you for all who came to see my on my birthday. it meant a lot to me.

this saturday lets say around 9-10ish

Cabo Cantina
100 Main St, Newport Beach, CA
1.3 mi NE - (949) 675-7760

mapquest it yo

my dad is providing free taxi cabs.... for reals this time

call me