has never sounded so appealing.

is wrap myself up in a feather comforter, a good book, and mainstream coffee.

There has got to be something better than this life.

isn't completely wonderful, but wonderful nonetheless.

Fun tonight.

Finally.

 Once your breathing was regulated, I laid my head gently on your chest.  I could hear the light congestion as the oxygen worked its way out of your nose, floating warmly onto my face.  I have always loved the way the scent of your breath made me feel; the sweetness that couldn't be achieved any other way than how you were fed.

You reached up and ( Read more... )

 I wanted to write last night, but my body was so heavy.  Isabel and Jake came over.  Marijuana is wonderful.  I slept well last night.

 I'm sinking back into the bad habit of staying up so late that my insides feel like they might stop working.  It's three in the morning.  Honestly, what the hell am I doing?  I cried on the phone to my mother tonight.  I had texted her and apologized for being a terrible daughter and I wished we were closer.  She called me within five minutes.

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When I think about it, there are a lot of things I wish I could accomplish; things that are completely out of reach in such a way that it makes my heart sore and limp.  The impossibility of achieving complete euphoria is obvious, but I still dwell on it.  Is anybody listening?  Can you hear what I'm thinking?  Come closer, listen!  Now can you ( Read more... )

Paranoid: High
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Very High
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Very High
Histrionic: Very High
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: Very High
Dependent: Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive: High

My soul is shattering in slow motion. I try to catch the pieces in the air, but to no avail. My arms are rubbery and limp and I crumble to the ground like burning newspaper ( Read more... )

Wise to cave mountain ben.

Obviously.