Sometimes I feel that I am doomed for sadness. That I just don't deserve happiness. Even when I am at the top of my game and on top of the world I still feel that I want to jump of the highest cliff and be gone forever. Why is that? Why is it that I wear the mask that I do. Who am I really kidding but myself. Even when I have the biggest smile on ( Read more... )

"Go Right.. ok go Left... at this next road go straight". That is what I would say to him as we were driving one night wasting time but we were together and that is all I cared about.  "Ok why didn't you go left like I told you too?". We were playing the left, right, straight game out in the country roads. I wasn't to sure where I was but well I ( Read more... )

( My Interests Collage! )

SO HAPPY
I think I found what ive been looking for. Could this really be happening to me or is am I just dreaming and soon it will just end up being a nightmare again?!?
Ive met this boy, his name is Steve and well I just knew from the moment that he emailed me I just knew that there was going to be something exciting happen. We talked for awhile and ( Read more... )

here i am again, sitting in my bed still wondering what to do.? still confused like never before. but there is one thing I know FO SHO and that is.....

that I just had found out that the one man that I thought I would spend the rest of my life with happily ever after has just got engaged this last past Monday. yes. engaged. like married. like  ( Read more... )

Well tonight I went and sat down by a little river after work. I was sort of nice but it was lonely.

As I was thinking about things I seen a leaf floating down the water and well the moon was shining down through the trees and the leaf was floating between the light and the dark. When it went throught where the moon was shinning you could see it, ( Read more... )

Stand Still, Look Pretty- The Wreckers
I wanna paint my face and pretend that I am someone else Sometimes I get so fed up, I don't even wanna look at myself But people have problems that are worse than mine I don't want you to think I'm complaining all the time And I hate the way you look at me I have to say I wish that I could start over I am ( Read more... )

My head is FULL of unfinished buisness. Im so lost and confused right now, for some reason I feel as though im about to die, like I was given 2 days to live and I have to go back and take care of everything before its to late. What I have to realize is that I need to just calm down and not be so freaking out.  One of my main things that is now on ( Read more... )

HAKUNA MATATA BITCHES! im going to Knox,  lets get it on! Sounds gay but its gonna be a grand 'ole time.. whooo hooo!!!

where to start... hmmm. ok well it all started when my grandparents died that lived here in Kouts and well we sold the house to who we thought would be good people. anyways a couple years later (the present day NOW) the family has been evicted from the house and it is up for sheriff's auction. The house is completely rundown, the grass is grown up ( Read more... )