2 more weeks of living by chicago's rules and living in the windy city. I like things better now here but it's always nice coming back. I havent given the title of "home" yet here. maybe next year. So after a weekend of sitting in the apartment and doing homework and not going outside until this morning, wow it felt refreshing. Things are ( Read more... )

24 Hours and Spring Break will officially begin. I need this break so bad. I'm so burnt out. It's like I'm dehydrated. I need something. I feel that everyone sees something wrong with me. Today is just another bad day to this bad week. I cant wait until Friday. There's hope the week can get somewhat better. I feel so alone. I feel like I'm ( Read more... )

This is just one bad week. Midterm Week. Cold weather in March. Just want to get through it and go home. I leave on Friday and it will be the first time I have flown by myself and I am very excited. The good news... I got back my pyschology paper that I thought I did terrible on and I ended up getting an A+. Basically, I just doubt myself way ( Read more... )

I don't think I can make it till Derby...I wanna come home.

This is to the point where its not just annoying but its sad.  I guess I'll never get the "college experience."  I chose to live on campus for a reason.  I wanted to make new friends and I wasnt looking to getting trashed, just to have fun with real friends and go out and have college memories.  It's so hard here when you try to talk to people and ( Read more... )

Today is a new day.  Or maybe I have a minor case of bi-polar...Either way, regardless, I'm over yesterday and on with today.  However, the bad news has still hit me pretty hard and I'm trying to repress it and put it in the back of my mind but it's really tough.  It's tough balancing all of this.  This is still surrell.  I walk to class everday ( Read more... )

 How can ONE day make ONE person feel so bad? I haven't cried in awhile and I've been happy and I've been proud of myself for that, but right now I just can't help it. I wish something would happen to cheer me up.  I even wore pink today to try and be festive about it. Yeah, didn't work. Only a few more hours and today will be over.

So today started out good.  Let me emphasize "started."  I got up early, went to my four hour class, came back to my room and was very productive and worked on a project for school all day.  Then the bad news comes.  How can you hear the words, she has six months to live and not get upset?  Try to push it away from my mind... and I can't seem to.  ( Read more... )

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Feeling slightly better today. I just want to be done. Got some much ( Read more... )