So I've become what I don't want to be ( Read more... )

I haven't updated at all since like february...because I've been so busy... working 8-5 all week...caught up in a meaningless relationship....the sad thing is theres love involved...at the rate were going it wont last much longer so...yea ...no Im not good...Im the worst Ive been in a while...I think I might be bipolar...or just loosing my mind ( Read more... )

sorry If Im weak and giving up

.I haven't yet.
dont think the worst...
doubt we've seen it

I inhale and realize theres no exhale
and theres no exit to last nights scare
Im still inside and sitting in one place

staring to the underneath of the floors

I guess you said your self
some promises are meant to be brokennow Im only debating on if you ( Read more... )

Think of the way I sound when I cry and tell me I dont belong
think of mistakes and how many people make them
I'll justify it all to the end and you'll never accept
I shouldnt be trying if its a lost cause
unless you can find that its love
maybe you haveI know it is ( Read more... )

according to one particular persons opinion, its easy for me to say goodbye or walk away from things.

you could have never been more wrong

gently carried on the wind to forbidden fields, flowers of the deepest red. As rays slowly descend, the contrast is revealed of dark red dust on deadened blades.

Love I cant turn away from this and I'm sorry ( Read more... )

I am stupid and I will never write again

today sucks and I have no life

I want to move away to europe or austraila or something
with *you know who you are*

and never come back

fuck bakersfield and fuck my life

i want to die

I guess now I expect everyone In my house to bow down to me...
I guess I do everything and deserve everything
I guess Im not worth thier breath
I guess Im not belonging
I need to drink but I wont..
Im not going to become another lush like them
I hate it here still

Im at work and I cant stand life
I hate it

you can tell shes been crying by the lie in her smile