Today amongst the others has been very irritable for me. Everyone keeps asking me, "are you ok" and I don't realize I'm doing it until they say something like that and I start thinking about all the shit I'm trying to keep off of my mind..I'm so fucking numb it's hard to even really think sometimes. I walk around like a zombie...."this is my life" ( Read more... )

a liking to share a heart in the same reflection without changing myself ( Read more... )

in the midst of being aggitated by circumstances I have given much thought to myself ( Read more... )

I am so irritated, pissed off at everyone, and depressed today.I was so mad earlier that I wrote four pages of complaints that have to do with things that are wrong in my life or that are going wrong.It's a little fucking ridiculous but it was soothing to me at the time.I still have more shit to write down too.I was supposed to spend this day ( Read more... )

it's so funny how things work.Travis told me I should message John to let him know that I don't want to let him go...am I actually taking advice from the hated?no no...can't be..hah ( Read more... )

today is going to be wonderful at work.It's me,Shaun, & Stevo.I totally caught a girl shoplifting today.I'm so good.They are banned from the store now.hah ( Read more... )

I am so happy because my hair is long enough to cover half of my tattoo on my back.That is an accomplishment for me.Everytime I have ever tried to grow out my hair I get impatient and cut it off...or I have bleached the hell out of it or dyed it too much and have to cut it because it starts to look terrible after awhile ( Read more... )

I am pissed off because of retarded things but I'm still going to talk about them because I can.No one reads this anyway.I really fucking hate it when girls who have had no previous culture start to latch on to who they think is cool.Cool being whether it's a friendly envy or an envy out of desperately wanting to be acknowledged by their boyfriend ( Read more... )

So I feel so jaded lately and it literally makes me sick.So I've been filling myself with as much music possible.I remember how I used to be when digging was a passion to find more and more beautiful music that I could engulf in for lack of a better word.I've been reading forcing myself to get into reading to expand my intelligence and keep my ( Read more... )

I have this dull ache...an ache indescribable but all too familiar.I can't say I didn't really expect it...and I can't say that I was even in love at all.It was just a chance to try something again.Something that could be "something" for lack of a better word.I'm not writing this on myspace because there are so many fucking eyes on there that I ( Read more... )