i just got back from a quick cutting session. i feel good about it, but also bad. i couldnt find any good glass (much less a razor or any sort of blade) so the glass i used didnt cut very well, just tore. i made several marks on my left forearm (which im sure will be accompanied by many others later) and they bled just a little. it burned more than ( Read more... )

i've decided that i'm going on a water fast (starting right now) and attempt to at LEAST make it until friday. hopefully a lot longer. thats not even a week, damn i suck. i probably wont be able to do it, especially if im here. my grandma will notice im not eating and she'll force me. well i'll try anyways. i wanna hit 110, at least...105..or lower ( Read more... )

i'm so sick of this bs. too much damn snow. fuck it, fuck it, and fuck it again. it should fuck itself up the ass. it needs to melt, disappear, be gone...anything. i cant go anywhere, do anything. im gonna kill myself.

fuck chris too...

(this would be where the cutting part comes in)

*thank god for sharp objects*

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according to ^ at age 18, my ideal weight(at this height) should be between 127-159.

i pray to god i never weigh that much.

just so everyone knows, the time on my computer is WAY off, so yeah. =D ( Read more... )

i wanna cut so bad. but i won't. not yet. maybe later. i will, i'll give in. he'll be mad, so i shouldn't ( Read more... )

0. Do you cut? yes ( Read more... )

1. your name spelled backwards: nylrac ( Read more... )