my period started this morning (yes i know you ALL wanted to know that) and im in so much fucking pain. i took midol earlier and it wore off. at 1st i wuz happie cuz my period wuz reallie late but now it just blows. i feel SO bloated, altho, thankfully, i havnt gained any weight since i started ( Read more... )

everywun keeps saying how tiny i look and how much weight i've lost. my skirt hardly stayed up this morning :) life is good . . .

FUCK the DATE on my JOURNAL. fuck it again, and again ( Read more... )

i jus got out the hopsickle again. o, yay. sundaie nite i decided my medicine wuz sum crap so i downed 10 of em (celexa). but newayz so my nana called poision control n they said call 911 so the cops got ther then the ambulance n they took me to ft. washington hopsickle. instead of pumping my tummy they made me drink charcoal, mmmm yum. fuck me. i ( Read more... )

- im taking my medicine ( Read more... )

MEE!!! yes, major score. I am going to a Good Charlotte/New Found Glory concert May 4th at 6:30 p.m. at the Patriot Center!!!!!! i fucking rawk lol. JOEL LOVES ME! (yes, yes he does, and i'll tell him) AND i didnt hav 2 pay 4 the tickets. lol (i ish so spoiled!)

DisorderRatingParanoid:HighSchizoid:ModerateSchizotypal:HighAntisocial:ModerateBorderline:Very HighHistrionic:HighNarcissistic:ModerateAvoidant:Very HighDependent:Very HighObsessive-Compulsive:Moderate
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i dunno if all that crap worked...but i guess we'll see. newayz ( Read more... )

i hurt. emotionally.

i'm damaged. pysically.

who cares? no one.

scar count:::
right arm: 9
left arm: 23 (scars ovr scars?)
i'd say we have a favorite . . .

my right arm keeps popping open and bleeding.

make the phone stop ringing before i have a panic attack.

why are you never here wen i need you ?

h o s p i t a l b o u n d

im a failure. its barely been 24hrs. and i broke the fast. it will impossible, impossible to do it at my grandmas house. i'll wait til next week, then i'll go for a good 7 days, at least. i feel so fat, so weak. i got by the whole morning without eating, but my grandma watches me like a hawk. after asking what i had eaten (she didnt believe me) she ( Read more... )

last night sucked. (yeah you can say that again) it just plain sucked. chris and i fought, again, (what a surprise). i duno wut 2 do. i apologized this morning (im not sure 4 what) but i kind of wish i hadnt. he acts like he doesn't give a shit about me when he says he does all the time. so i ask him why cant he act like he cares and he just shrugs ( Read more... )