Haha a year since I have written in here. This is a new record for me. I seem to always come back here when I am feeling lonely and going through a bit of a rough patch. I find a weird sort of comfort here. Well this diary has sort of grown up with me I guess. It is nearly 3 years old, and even though I used this as more of a track record of how ( Read more... )

Why is it that the negative words/feelings whatever in our head have so much more control than those of the opposite nature ( Read more... )

Well today was going so well and I had only had 165 calories and then I had my grandma's over for dinner and that fucked everything up. Now the scales is saying I am 119.0 (54 kilos) as opposed to what I was this morning 116.8 (53 kilos ( Read more... )

Argh I have to retype this ( Read more... )

Hey hey hey ( Read more... )

I have been going crapily the last month or so. Food wise. I am crap thats all there is to it ( Read more... )

Hey ( Read more... )

So Pissed

Cut a long story short I cant do the 40 hour famine

I got the whole talk today to

"I dont want you losing anymore weightm if you do I am sending you to a shrink"
My Mother said. So I am gonna try to get to and mantain 50 kilos before I leave to Europe and then when I come back I will focuse on weightloss again!

Today
School:
Cordial: 20 cals
Icepole: 38 cals

Home:
3:30
3 corn thins: 66 cals
Honey: 50 cals
Vegemite: 4 cals

5:00
Cereal: 136 cals
Milk: 100 cals

Dinner:
2 vegeburgers: 244 cals
Salad: 20 cals

Total: 658 cals .... better than other days

Tomorrows Plan

School:
Coridal: 30 cals
Water

Hometime:
Ricecakes: 44 cals
vegemite: 10 cals

Coffee any hot drinks

Minimal dinner