I really hate these dreams I've been having the past couple of weeks they're really driving me nuts and making me extremely depressed.
I'm starting to feel like I have no one. I'm starting to not care if I have anyone.

Usually when I have dreams the setting for them is somewhere familiar or is manifested from something familiar. Probably because I have an awful imagination. But last night it was set in a place I'd never been or seen before. And it was one of the most upsetting dreams I've ever had.

Where's my Robin?

I thought I was doing better but today isn't one of those days where I feel like I"m doing too good.

I"m not doing well. It's strange I feel like it would be so much easier. out of sight out of mind right????

Not the case.

So I've been having this sort of reoccuring bad dream but last night was the worst. He keeps dying. It's really scary I don't like having dreams like that. It was so real. And now I have this really weird feeling.

I know that if nothing has changed by now it's not going to. But I want it to so bad. Or am I aloud to take back the last 3 1/2 years of my life? Because that would be swell too. He's just the only person I've ever felt that way about and I'm afraid I'm never going to feel that way again. Maybe it's because I don't want to feel that for anyone else ( Read more... )

I don't understand how someone you cared about more than anyone in the world can just not have feelings. It's a really strange thing. It breaks my heart to know that when I laid in bed crying he sat in his living room and watched nip tuck with him school mates. He said he loved me and wanted me. That things would be different this time. I guess you ( Read more... )

Hollywood at the end of the year?

I never used to understand why my parents were so grumpy on a regular basis when I was little. I do now. It's hard even thinking about being grown up. Thinking about insurance and credit and bank choices... I haven't even started worrying about paying bills. If I left that would mean I'd really be on my own ( Read more... )

I don't deal well with change. I'm going through a rut and I feel like I suck at life. I put in my two weeks today so I"ll start a new job after that. Classes start monday and I really need to do well this semester because I've been failing horribly at school. All of my friendships with people are rediculously disfunctional. And the only person I' ( Read more... )