i think i've felt alone for longer than i know. or, now i know, or feel ( Read more... )

possibly due to the 18 hours i slept the previous day, last night i only slept for maybe... two. while i was attempting to sleep, instead i was thinking about what i'm going to do with all my extra time since i won't be taking classes this fall. and i decided to do something ive been toying with tackling for some while now: i'm going to read every ( Read more... )

tomorrow's events will be 11th time ive moved in the past 5 years ( Read more... )

every so often i look into whats happening in the boston area: gossip, musical things im missing, lame things i would have made fun of while i was there. my stint in beantown was surely not as awesome as the near-obligatory term half of the CT friends i know have gone through (some still seeking passing to the philly phase), falling something ( Read more... )

ive had tattoo dreams before, the one i remember the clearest as when i had a huge whale tattooed on my forehead (a cartoony one, more like the whaler's hockey team logo than anything). the other night i had one of these which i would actually consider executing in waking life. on the inside of my right bicep i had this:


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well, apparently im moving again soon. 10 weeks ( Read more... )

ive had a surge of anxiety as of late, almost seemingly replacing the regular surge of depression preceding it. im not sure why this is. i could venture to guess im a table with a leg knocked out what with school having ended for now. the past year has been full of upheavals and interesting new problems and just now, its rather... not. i see no ( Read more... )

accidentaly cutting your wrist severely while operating in a spell of very deep depression is quite possibly one of the worst "be careful what you wish for" situations i could imagine one falling into. orrrrr i dont have to imagine.

i mean, isnt the CONTROL a key aspect????

this semester has been a real disaster, with both syllabi and my mental health as the main victims of a general sweep of disintigration and near vaporization. the former's demise i chalk up to my professors while the latter may be attributed to a vocanic point of what i now realize as the existential crisis that has been my entire life (for as long ( Read more... )

i drove down ( Read more... )