Haven't posted in a while... there's probably a reason for that but I don't remember it now so here I am ( Read more... )

I have to try to find happiness like he has now, without me. He won't forgive me, and I won't forgive myself. Ever.

Why does this still have to hurt so bad still ( Read more... )

He hates me. He definitely hates me ( Read more... )

What have I done?

I'm driving him away as a friend and I don't even know what I'm doing wrong. The only person who talks to me an who I can tell everything is ignoring me. He wants to be just friends. I can do that if he wants, I swear. No flirting just talking like friends do...

kill me please

issie_chan

I had the nightmare again. This is going on 4 days and it's the same thing over and over and over. wtf. What is it supposed to mean? Why do I have to have the thing every day? Idk... so I think he's pissed at me. I tested him, but I swear I didn't think he'd wake up! Like you care though, you're a computer. *head/desk* But I told him about how I ( Read more... )

Dear LJ,

He doesn't care anymore does he? He's got Amya.... maybe I'll get lucky and have lightning strike me or I get hit by a car or something.

bye

issie_chan

I hate nightmares... I just woke up from one and I wasn't completely awake yet so I felt like I was still in pain ( Read more... )

I figured that I would have another rant, considering I'm alone... again ( Read more... )

Dear LJ,

I don't know where to begin...

I suppose first off, I still love Austin. Why is this bad? Because he has another girlfriend and I'm not her. How low can I get, to tell him that I still have those feelings for him? Pretty darn low because I did it more than once... He must hate me. He hasn't even told her about me yet. Though I guess he was ( Read more... )