Joe left today. he didn't want me to go with him. He doesn't even have a bed there right now. I want him to come home. I feel so lonely already. I hate this. I am definetely not going to be able to deal with this. :(

all I have to say about that last entry is HAHA. you really do NEVER know whose telling the truth. AND obviously I am so naive I believe anything you'd tell me. not anymore. never will I speak to this person again, and our friendship is completely over. I can't believe I could believe so many lies ( Read more... )

I hate when this happens. You think everything is going perfectly, then one thing can change it all. but you don't know if its true, you don't know who to trust. I wish I could read everyone's mind so I could know what was really going on. I don't know how to feel or what to think. Just felt like saying that.

sometimes I feel like ending everything. sometimes I get so pissed off. I cant stand when people ruin plans, especially my boyfriend. I know he doesnt mean to make me mad but it does. and on top of everything, I am always tired. I think theres something wrong with me. I am ALWAYS so tired no matter how much sleep I get. its like I can't enjoy my ( Read more... )

So, a couple new things that I haven't talked about in here ( Read more... )

I have never been this happy in my life. for once, I don't need to try to get his attention, I don't need to call him all the time wondering what he's doing, I don't have to worry about him, basically is what it comes down to. No matter what Joe will be my everything and no one can change that. I have dated other people and so has he, and we both ( Read more... )

Is it SERIOUSLY that fucking hard to call on time. Even when I tell you it annoys me... wouldn't you think that would give you the thought of like "Oh, Maria hates when I don't call her back on time, I should probably call her right now & APPOLOGIZE"

GAAAAAAAAAH, I CAN'T STAND THATTT. the most annoying thing ever! EVERRRRRRR!. goodbye.

SO, tonight is the one night a year, everyone gets shitfaced, for a good reason of course. I will be one of those amazing people. I CAN'T WAIT. 1. because I will be spending the night with Joseph. 2. because I will be at hotel where no one will no me, and I won't have to care what I act like :) GOD I love new year's eve. I don't have to work ( Read more... )

not gonna lie. I love my life right now.
My fucking brother is home. and I just went and chilled with him. NOW I am home, and I'm going to eat, so I can sleep.
Tomorrow is christmas eve. & I have to work. only til 3 though. THEN Joe is meeting my entire family maybe. I can't wait.
I gotta go to bed. Workin early tomorrow. Night Bitches.

"I feel good, ( Read more... )

LAST NIGHT. it was the Brad Paisley concert. I fell in love. He's is so cute and WE LOCKED EYES. Only because I was in THE FRONT ROW. Yea, you're jealous! :) Anyway I am so glad I went with my mom and Joe I had such a great time. Today I think Joe is coming over, and then I am hanging out with Ninnerz and Vee from work tonight. Should be fun, we ( Read more... )