One year ago (to be exact it's actually more like 13months), I wrote a short memoir for school. We were supposed to write about what life would be like 10 years from graduation. It was a happy moment for me. Despite many uncertainties, questions in life I had things to look forward to and i was so happy in the simplest way. Just like a movie, a ( Read more... )

It pains my heart that I cannot be there to say good bye. But in truth, I don't think I'm ready to say those words. I won't.

I will find that cafe by the river in ljubljana and say hello again. And you two will be there, I know, sitting across each other as you promised.

Dear,

There are really no words that can ever console your, our loss of two of the best friends in the world and our lives. I know that Alexis especially, means so much more to you than anyone can ever imagine. We have to mourn them and grieve because they truly were amazing people - as friends and as people who were making a difference in the ( Read more... )

Today I saw the sun. I saw the clouds roll swiftly across the powdery blue sky. The last time I remember seeing the sky like that was when I was young, playing in my backyard. I would look up, feeling hot after running around and smelling the scent of grass, and the sky would be even bluer than today and the clouds more magnificent. Today was a ( Read more... )

I'm scared ( Read more... )

It's just so hard to feel this. I hate it, it makes me feel vulnerable and useless. I'm doing my best not to feel anything. I'm pushing away anything and anyone that could break the flood gates, and that may be causing more damage than anything else. But what can I do, I have to look out for myself because no one else will.

This is part of trying ( Read more... )

I recently fell in love. The real kind. The true love - as cheesy as it sounds. The kind where you can't breath, where you get a lump in your throat, where when something goes wrong you have no more clue what to do and you can't make sense of anything in the world or your life. It's really amazing. But it was so hard to get there, it's actually ( Read more... )

I MISS YOU

I love you
So much that I cannot say
So I try to make my Love something
You can touch
You can feel
You can see

I tried to make
You an entire world
Made out of my Love
A world as beautiful
As you
A world as wonderful
As you
A world as perfect
As you

But my love cannot contain
All of you
All of your life
My love
My world
Is not enough
I am not enough
No ( Read more... )