i finished my first canvas yesterday ( Read more... )

Think we know
Oblivious though
Unified clones
Sit like stones
Up on thrones
Of fool's gold
Looking bold
But all alone

-dredg

my mom went out and bought a bunch of air conditioners. now all the windows and doors have to stay closed all the time. i feel claustrophobic. and sort of strangled. i already did, a little, but its gotten worse. i keep on staying upuntil midnight or two or three in the morning feeling like im suffocating in this house. my mom's weirdness is really ( Read more... )

I left my dad's house and had to say goodbye to her. it was the hardest goodby ei can remember. Its funny, she acts very uptight and unemotional most of the time and then all the sudden she'l say something very personal and unexpected. out of the blue she told me that she really didn't want me to leave. and then as we were saying goodbye, she kept ( Read more... )

i dont know what i want out of my life. i dont know what i want out of tomorrow even. i dont understand myself and i dont understand my world ( Read more... )

my grandparents were a little more interesting than i thought they would be. my grandmother wasnt, but my grandad was. she spent the dinner meal discussing how the tops on the milk back home are blue, but here they are red. my grandfather, though, told us all how he plans to kill squirrels in his backyard with an electric fence contraption. i guess ( Read more... )

i woke up at 11:00 this morning and still felt tired. it took me awhile to get to sleep last night. i couldnt get my mind to shut up. i do that a lot. i dont really even remeber what i was thinking about, but i guess it was important. my grandparents came today an hour or two ago, and i guess im supposed to be visiting with them, but they're pretty ( Read more... )

well then ( Read more... )