new chapter
old memories
i cant decide who stays and who goes
im taking off soon
new me...everything seems afraid
and i tell myself im okay

i miss my baby doll

im into it like quicksand

got glasses- cute ( Read more... )

things are going ( Read more... )

i feel awful. like i dont deserve it.
like im controlling and retched and horrible.
like im just crying because i feel like shit about myself
i should be alone

sweet

high spirits ( Read more... )

just for the record**

tonight seems to be consisting of...

a) renting the notebook (sob)
b) buying cosmo, reading front to back, and believing every word of it
c) eating strawberry ice cream with a fork
d) considering wearing heals more often...its spring
e) oh...and getting laid

.....fucking story of my life bitches

alright...im taking this as a sign. im really starting to believe in all that mumbo jumbo shit. listen to your gut dammit.

so ive realized that im going to have to work my ass off to get anything worth having in life. things just dont fall into my lap like i hoped they would.

i need to start riding more...at least 2 times a week if im really going to do this.

i need to start exercising.

i need to start eating right.

i need to find new music.

i need to grow up

itinerary
=lose weight
=find special glow
=go to vegas more often-
=pick flowers
=swim

obsessions
=sneaker pimps
=vegas $10,000 whores
=high heals
=flipped bangs
=painted nails

words
=crush
=fabulous
=untouchable
=babe
=doll
=mirk

its finals week. i feel like my head is going to explode. how lovely it would be to graduate. oh well...im blaming my bad grades on a rough semester. thats not an excuse ( Read more... )