And I stand. Here I stand waiting. Dreams of me erasing all the false words that you spoke. Regret-filled nights finally end. Sleepless nights, they finally end. I'm not forgiving you. I will never forgive you. Reality is sinking in; it's your mistakes that brought you here. The things you said brought me to my knees. The truth it hurrts so fucking ( Read more... )

the last cuple days blew but o well. I am feeling better. Me and alyssa are still talking just not as much as we used to, at least we are still friends. I still talk to kevyn but its not that way it was before, mainly cuz he talks alot and i talk very little. Im still pissed at him, and that feeling wont go away ever, but thats ok. The show on ( Read more... )

yesterday was horrible.. i wrote in my live journal.. and alyssa once again took it as i was angry or upset with her. so she said she was fed up with me.. made me completely feel like shit.. so i wrote her a note.. asking y she seems so upset with me.. she sai that i try to control her wich i dont... i never make comments when she don't.. where the ( Read more... )

yesterday was ok.. i wasnt rly into halloween this year, at least i got to see Alyssa for a lil bit. Then i whent back to kevyn's house... we watched final destanation 2 and i ended up falling asleep... then i got up at 3 in the mourning. i started to think about stuff.. i started to think about where i live, my family, school.. and what i was told ( Read more... )

well i started work yesterday, it was cool, its alot more fun then wendys... i heard some stuff that kev said before and im botherd but o well... i dont care anymore... i got the new cob cd, it kicks ass.. Talking to cait, thats pritty chill. word im out. peace niggas

OK today started off realy shitty.. me and alyssa talked last night, and she seemed to think that shes what causes my depression and that is far from true... Shes made me happier and she makes me a better person in away cuz i never realy did think i was gunna make it through this year with skool and shit but shes there for me and she believes in me ( Read more... )

wow today has sucked horribly... well i'll start off with yesterday...Alyssa went to the dentist so she wasn't in school, i chilled kevyn and skiped all but 2 classes. i no i should go but i dunno whats wrong with me, i wasn't like this last year at all... But yea then Alyssa came back at the very end of the day like i figured she would cuz of ( Read more... )

ok word alot of shit happend this week. Last time i updated was like a while ago... I think haha. Well all i remember was i was talkin to alyssa i think that night or night after. Somthings were said, and we talked about us and stuff. It was rly weird..The day before we were talkin about goin out and shit and then then out of no where it changed. ( Read more... )

ok so ill finish up dating liek i promised... OK i have been increadibly depressed lately, it for a number of reasons. My grandmother died, we were realy close.. it feels wierd cuz it dosnt evin seem like she was old enugh to die. I also have been feeling very savere chest pains... i have to go to a cardiac doctor, wich means theres a chance that i ( Read more... )

wow its bein a while since i updated this mother fucker... alot has happend. Me and Cait broke up, she moved to PA.. we dont rly talk anymore but she calls me constantly. She still dose the cutting shit.. Shes worse then she was.. That makes me sad. i was so proud she stoped cutting when we started goin out and now shes started again and shes evin ( Read more... )