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[itrybutyousee]

I guess I really dont care about people. Lately, in the past 6 months or so, i've found myself fantasizing about killing people. Various ways; it goes from blunt ends of shovels, to gutting with knives, to - well the last few weeks it's been a combination of those two. There've been other ways i've fantasized about, but I tend to obsess. I've been

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[heldxyou_closer]

OT: What happened with that girl you spoke to me of in August? (Or whenever it was..? Before I moved.)

[itrybutyousee]

That's a rather long story. After 2 years of talking, and on the promise that if she paid for her ticket to come here and back then I would pay for her end of the vacation while she was here, she came, I toured her around NZ for 2 weeks, and then she left. Only afterwards did I find out that she'd been seeing someone else for 3 months prior to coming to NZ, her parents bailed her out for half the plane ticket cost, and she cut off all communication with me - phone, internet, email, etc (whereas all that was previously quite frequent

[endlessheadtrip]

i don't necessarily think fantasizing about killing people is bad.. as long as it doesn't consume your thoughts - oh, and obviously, if you don't act on them.
i don't really know what to say.. i just wanted to say something to let you know that i still read this, and i think about you often.

I won't run away.

[endlessheadtrip]

oh, and by the way, just from reading the quick run-down of what the girl did, you have PLENTY of reason to be angry.

i feel like i have a good amount of hate/anger in me, but i'm not sure if it's founded.

[anonymous]

I won't bother trying to tell you what you are, or how you should feel, because nobody can presume to know the former and there's not much reason in the latter. But, if you want attention--beggars can't be choosers