i dont understand myself anymore. I used to think i had everything figured out, and i realized im just as lost as everyone else in this damn world ( Read more... )

Id give anything for you to talk to me the way you talk to everyone else. I could try my hardest to look good for you, and youd still me the same way you do every other day. DO you know how tired i get trying to be something i'm not for you? I've started disliking my friends because of you. I get jealous whenever they're around because you cant ( Read more... )

i wish i remembered how to write in my livejournal.
where have my thoughts gone?

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i remember this one thursday night in California during the holidays kate kagan was over watching the OC at my house. It was one of the holiday episodes from the first season. And it was the one where Oliver has a New Years Eve party, and Marissa is there, you know, thinking about Ryan and what not because Ryan can't be with her for reasons i cant ( Read more... )

i feel like the days of summer are vast approaching. This weekend was amazing. I mean, i guess nothing spectacular happened, i just felt like a teenager on summer vacation, and it felt great. I forgot that tomorrow I have english, spanish, yearbook, and community service, but it was a nice thing to forget. Not only to add to this forgetfullness, ( Read more... )

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