im at home at 4 in the afternoon on a monday after being in class.  it reminds me of high school.  i hate it.

 im just living and learning.  not sure why i choose to do it alone.  i want control.  but i cant control anything except for one thing in my life.  and that thing is not healthy for me to control.  i was going to call a couple people over the break from school.  guess i never got around to it.  wish i had.

 really, i just cant deny it.  the past couple of months have been really terrible for me and i accept that, but i still have a hard time dealing with it.  ive been crying so much most days and thats really really weird for me.  but more so, i hope others can accept that im unhappy right now.  it doesnt mean that i cant have a good time, i really ( Read more... )

so tonight bottletree is having a free screening of youre gonna miss me.  if you havent heard of it, its a documentary about roky erickson.  ive never seen it and ive never known that much about roky erickson but ive heard this is an incredible documentary and totally fucked up too so .. awesome, i cant wait.  so who wants to go with me ( Read more... )

i could disappear right now.i kinda wanna. lets disappear.

its sunday and its stormy. worst combination ever. i feel like i havent really had fun in a while. but actually, i have its just that i guess my idea of fun is kind of shifting and i think im pretty okay with that. work really sucked today, like especially sucked. but my mom wants to hang out today so i said we should go to surin because i knew she ( Read more... )

i just got home from work ( Read more... )

i miss so many people right now. but i cant decide if i miss them because i dont see them much, or ever, or if i miss them because i miss who we used to be and the relationship we used to have. i miss people from like 4th grade and 2 months ago and everywhere in between ( Read more... )

The past few days have been really good for me. Which is kind of weird for me to say because the past few days have consisted of me getting more fucked up every night, than i have since a lot of months ago. But Ive also had a couple conversations that have impacted me in kind of a cool way for me, probably not really for any one else. so today, in ( Read more... )

you seem happy