Everywhere I turn it seems like people are dying. I can't go more than a few hours without thinking about death. My great great aunt and my great uncle just died recently. I've been having nightmares almost every night about people close to me dying or about people I knew who died somewhat recently and had strange unnatural deaths. The books I' ( Read more... )

Friday night I got some much needed sleep. Saturday I went on a really fun date with the my favorite boy in the world. Sunday I got some serious work done on my Gold Award prep stuff. Then I went to Becca's and had a really good night there, but woke up sick. Boo. Well it was still a really nice night. Now I'm so excited for Saturday night. ( Read more... )

What's wrong with me? Why am I so angry lately? I get so irritated, mainly when I'm at school. I think I'm being more outward about my anger than I've ever been, which could be good or bad. I don't know. I think I've just lost my patience.

i really want to go on a vacation, but i don't possibly have the money to fund my taste. i've just been watching the travel channel night and day and drooling over the beautiful places i wish i was in. and why isn't it summer yet? i need to be out of school, relaxing, and making money.

I feel like it should be Sunday night . Yesterday I thought it was Saturday. My time perception is so off. Went to Nadia's suprise birthday breakfast instead of school and then the beach. Went to see all three of my grandparents in the evening. Then went to my cousin's party in Hollywood which was in a really cool film stage. Today I tried to ( Read more... )

Yay! This week is testing so seniors don't have to come to school until late which means more sleep for me, except I'm not even going tomorrow. Breakfast and then the beach! Sounds like fun. So much better than school. School actually isn't awful now that APs are done. Went out to dinner with my family and Martin for my brothers' birthday ( Read more... )

Today was wonderful. I love my car so much. It's so much fun to drive. I bought a prom dress last night. It isn't exactly what I wanted but I think it's fine for one night and I'm hoping to have fun dressing it up with accessories. I had free periods in most of my classes today. AP tests are all over. The weather is nice, and did I mention I ( Read more... )

Guess what! I got a car for Mother's Day! I am no longer carless. It's so exciting.

one AP test down and one more to go. i cannot stand these tests for the life of me. they're way too long and boring. i'm exhausted and i really don't want to go to school tomorrow and i don't have to since i really should be going to the doctor because my body is falling apart but i think i'll feel guilty if i don't go. especially with the ( Read more... )

I don't understand why no matter what I do, I get yelled at or blamed for something. It's my fault that they decided not to give me the car they bought for me because they are ridiculous. Now it's my fault that I needed a ride home because i don't have a car to drive. It's my fault that there is a thing called rush hour. My fault that prom is ( Read more... )