The noise and busy ness of the world distract me ( Read more... )

She wanted to go to that island in her mind
with the smiling palm tree swaying in time
to the swinging hammock
(It's her only boundary line.)

In case your the only one
it's where the dove sings 
of victories they've won 
while pebbles roll across the sand
they talk about past flings
and brag of bad things they've done.
The night stars graceful show
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 ...i duno

well whats new. nothing same shit different bull. i've been down about lately. seems like 20 weeks ago i was in the same place. everything that was a huge part of my life has been gutted out leaving this emptiness who disguises himself neatly in my itunes... for a while my itunes turned sickingly emo. even songs that use to be my pick me up songs ( Read more... )

i got warding off the harsh winter down to a science now. Chapstick, lotion, and an electric blanket. Why the hell didnt i think of it before? winter aint even that evil yet. however, my depression kicked into high gear last week out of fucking no where. I started contemplating how to get more hard script drugs and chain off from refill to refill. ( Read more... )

im painting my room monday this really rad aquatic 50's color blue. i picked it out at home depot. they have a disney section of paints. I think mines is in the little mermaid spectrum of color cuz the color of the paint i picked out was called "sea song" :-) its kinda like the color of these letters... but BETTER!!!! MUCH BETTER!!!  kinda more ( Read more... )

Here's to having what you've always wanted.
Here's to wondering if thats a good thing or a bad thing. 
Here's to deciding if a want is an actual need. 
Here's to the balance of both. 
Here's to the balance of none, whatever happens to be the case.  
Here's to having a second chance at life, 
Here's to having all the ideas, but no actual clue what the ( Read more... )

dunno

I miss my roomates. I've found myself thinking about every room mate i've ever had. Wondering how their doing and if their feeling comfortable at their new pad. I miss the flavor they brought me. A breath of fresh air, or a fresh bottle of sailor jerry. lol. They were really good times. The best times i've had in my life. Good memories to keep. I ( Read more... )

 I've gone thru a lot the last few weeks i've written.
 I've finally let go of alot of anger, pain, regret and guilt. As a symbolic exclamation point of the whole thing i let go of my lip ring as well. Indeed a very monumental thing in my life.
Besides that, with the boy situation- I try to tell myself that i don't want another person in my life for ( Read more... )