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i wanna give up. im to tired to keep going on anymore. as much as i try to be happy with what i have and all cuz i have it good. but i cant theres always a feeling tht runs through my veins and grows in my gut like a cloud always over my head. i dont care anymore. whats the point im not gonna hurt myself but i hate it here. karma doesntwork ( Read more... ) -
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i have such bad nerves right now for no reason.....i feel so unmotivated randomly. i hope writeing will make me feel better cuz i feel so trapped and alone. its so bad right now. i want to be like promised heaven cuz i keep imagine living for like the end. just black nothingness. why would i wanna live for tht. i just need to breath -
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sooooooo much has happened the past like weekk so since my mom was in florida she left me with my dad long story but ill try to summerize it... just so i can get it outa my head. so last saterday (since todays technocoly sateraday although its 1 in the morning ) i was writing my report on my laptop when my dad walks in (we have a very bad ( Read more... ) -
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dyed my hair bright purple came out better then i thought it shines through my bangs but isnt too suddle nor tooo bright. anyways idk what to do about everyone drifting apart from me emily never is something i could count on, stepahnie is exactly the same, kristine appears nice but you can tell she doesnt like me and she only comes to me when shes ( Read more... ) -
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I should be sleeping now since i have to wake up earlier tmw... even though 10 is not early what so ever i slept in til 230 this morning so iv been sleeping sooo heavily not to mention having physco dreams and actually being able to remeber them in the morning. I added like 15 peol tonight haha just kept looking up"life" on this sight reading ( Read more... ) -
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i hate these feelings of lonlieness i get all the time. they scare me so much. i hate living day to day but thts how its gotta be i guess just telling myself to make it til whenever b.c. blah blah blah im so unmotivated and making like fake goals and motvations for myself is getting old. Anyways right now im "living for" tommorrow (technocoly ( Read more... ) -
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soooo connor hates me but whateverrrr anywaysss the last few nights have been good on firday there was a seshh at emilys madd funn and then on saterday we had some at my house even though my parents were home loll we sat on my roof (my new favorite place) . Anywaysss its regents week and i remeber around this tiome last year i was sooo depressed im ( Read more... ) -
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i got the stomach virus right now. lemme let you in on everything right now. connor likes me... ALOT but were in a fight i dont like him. Alex likes me again,,,and idkk. i like john m. from a diff highschool he liked me a lot and stuff til we hung out on friday i thought it went good... and we even hooked up but i guess not becuz he acts so weird ( Read more... ) -
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ugh i havnt gone to school in 2 days shit ive missed sooo many days of school because of my goddamn stomach what happened on wedsneday i cant even begin ugh a fukin nightmare. . .i don't wanna talk about it though. Damn i forgot i have siblings. ugh im soo fukin lonely ive let evryone down. who am i... -_- i really just don't know i need to get ( Read more... )