the new journal

is under the username ms_mikeymayhem   add me.

i think it may be time for a new LJ.
one that i will actually link in places.

this is a new me,, and i do have valid things to say.

that arent just about stupid boys in bands....

or self discovery,

I officially feel as if I am different person than I was for the past three years,

the end.

This optimistic thing hasnt done wonders for me, but hasnt brought me down lately either.

I generally have no concerns lately.
well thats a lie, but I am not letting silly things bother me that normally would.

I had an epiphany the other day about myself.
I realized I missed out on a really awesome boy, that had awesome potential because I was too ( Read more... )

I dont know where to even start.

New Years went better than expected, so thats a plus.

I decided to write all the lame dudes from 2008 off, if they gave me no reason to believe otherwise. However, one minor detial in that plan I never realized how much I cared about one. I hate not talking to him, and I miss even the friend quality of it. I am afriad ( Read more... )

i want a reason to smile.

i want to not feel ridiculously lonely.

i want a reason to wear all these cute outfits i have.

i wanna wake up to texts that say " just thinking about you".

i want to mean something to some one.

its almost a year now.

i cant be positive anymore.

i am beginning to hate myself.

i beginning to think its me.

everyone else is getting ( Read more... )

in two days i will be 23 ( Read more... )

i am insane ( Read more... )

the closet was in associated press. just our closet. which  makes us worldly famous. amazing ( Read more... )

sigh. you know this thanksgiving/ hospital visit has taught me alot.

i have some really amazing friends and family . who would sincerly be upset if i died.
and they have no idea how much i appreciated them for that.

i will never eat a wawa salad again in my life. thank you food poisoning.

i dont understand how people do herione/ morphine because the ( Read more... )

i am officially ditching the last boys i was crushing on ( Read more... )