2010 is for me in many ways the end of one life and the beginning of another. 2009 was hopefully my rock bottom, and hopefully now that I am a more stable individual who can get out of bed and do things like go to school without having to recuperate later with hours of Sesame Street and crying I can move on to accomplish the things that I want. So ( Read more... )

I want to be strong, I want to be the strong one. Yet in my infinite weakness I want my thoughtfulness and care and love to be known. No one will read this, but the knowledge that it could be read is somehow comforting. I have been asked the same question recently by two people that I admire and hold dear, and if they were reading this and if ( Read more... )

I will be 19 in an hour, 6,935 days of life. I can't say I feel any smarter or stronger or better than 365 days ago, maybe a little bit wiser... maybe. 19 sounds so much older than 18 doesn't it?

Apparently the only inspiration I needed was the frustration, disappointment, shame, and freakish, eager need to please that a minimum wage job brings. Apparently listening to Rihanna, Britney Spears and The Veronicas, yeah I know their names... AND the words to their songs, has brought me closer to my inner creativity that has been dammed up for ( Read more... )

I've been drifting in my own little world for months, with nothing to tie me down, and it is both beautiful and frightening up here.

I think my body might be falling apart.

Sick with some weird stomach thing, home alone, can't even find one of the cats to cuddle with, going to go finish watching Hannibal... alone, tired, yet somehow oddly more hopeful than I have been in a while.

Is pretty fun. S'mores are the best thing in the world. I sing "Baby Got Back" when drunk.

Cathy has scared and threatened me into staying with you Livejournal.... why does Cathy have such power over me? Whatever fine, I'm going to post all the fucking time now Cathy, your life is going to be flooded with my Livejournal posts, and you won't even know what to do!

In other news I'm going camping for the first time this weekend! Yay!

I don't know how to break this nicely LJ....I don't think it's going to work out between you and me, it's not you it's me.... I just don't feel the same way about you that I used to..... please don't make this harder than it already is.....
we had some good times... but I just think we should end it.