i hate how i feel right now. so indecisive. so unaware. am i breaking down the walls i've built around myself for so long, or just building them higher? i can't tell the difference. a liar stays a liar, right? even when i haven't lied to practically anyone for half a year, i'm still the same liar. i lie to myself rather than to others. nothing is ( Read more... )

live is only worth living if you actually live. love is only worth having if you actually love ( Read more... )

“Not what we call death, but what beyond death is not/ death,/ We fear, we fear.” (72) Why does so much of mankind fear death? One can stop at any moment and any place in time, look around - or in - himself, and find someone who fears their end. It’s the Catholic giving you a speeding ticket that is afraid that he has sinned too much and ( Read more... )

if you're bored, i could really use the input... i'm gonna post my jounral topics that i have to do for my english project, and if you have any input, i would looove you... (and yea, it's supposed to be short... it's supposed to be 1 page max, but i went like 1.5 sentences too long... big-facking-boo-hoo haha)

PLOT...Murder in the Cathedral is T.S ( Read more... )

i got my transcript the other day... in just a year my GPA has dropped from a 3.8 to a 3.2... i've dropped nearly an entire point this past year... how did i fuck up so badly? how did i let my fucked up heart and mind take over me so much? it's funny, tho, to look back at when my depression was at it's height and to see everything that it tore ( Read more... )

i hate english summer projects... i always wait until the last two weeks, pushing everything into one small space of time... and i can't write... eevrything that i put out is so... so bad... idk... and i can't go to the gym until i put alot of work into it... nice, mom, nice haha... restrict health and exercise for homework ( Read more... )

screw friends only... that's muy boring, eh ( Read more... )