surgery tomorrow.
christmas in a few days.
i love you.
and hopefully,
everyone has a nice christmas.

so its 1:30 a.m. im waiting for ron to get off work and get here, so we can go to sleep.
im so bored.
i was shaving my legs for a hour.
and i have a half of cigarette left.
idkk, im struggling to keep my eyes open.
why does taco bell have to be open until 2:00?
gay..

things have changed since i last wrote in here.
keisha left. she went back to orlando or somesort. and i miss her. but i dont know why. because i havent even gotten a phone call from her since shes left. 
ron and me are still together. and plan on keeping it that way.
i quit marching band. i think im just fucken lazy. but idk, i still kinda play the ( Read more... )

the past few days have been sweeet. hung out with keisha and joe and mike and ron and everyoneee. and yesterday i saw two movies. monster house 3D and clerks 2... =] it was greatttt. ron is a dork. and i saw sara and kyleee.
so thats good.

NEXT TIME.
WHEN SOMEONE SCREWS ME OVER.
PLEASE DONT LET ME MAKE THE MISTAKE...
OF LETTING IT SLIDE AND GETTING BACK TOGETHER WITH THEM.
SO THEN THEY CAN SCREW ME OVER SOME MORE.

ehh, i just read my some of my older entries.
im such a dork.
and so corny. lol.

things are good.
i get to see him tonight.
after he gets off of work at 5.
but starr leaves for 2 weeks at 6.
so.. i need to see her.
soon.
definately.
cos im gonna miss her so much.
im so hungry.
where the fuck is my dad?

 this wasnt supposed to happen. according to you.

you make me feel something i never thought id feel.
being with you, its something ive wanted forever, but 
i didnt know where to look.

im so glad i found you.

soo.
we're back together.
my dad is ditching me and my brother.
on our weekend to see him.
to go to a blueoctober concert.
im pissed.

im talking to him right now.
he wants me back.
but idontknow what to do.

starr,lauren,kim,and tashy are coming over. along with a whole bunchof my brothers friends, and we're getting drunk.

i love you.

maybe if you showed that you really wanted to talk to me. or made an effort to call me once in a while, maybe things would be different. but right now, i dont know where we stand. and it kills me.
i wish things were the way they used to be. im not talking about one thing here, im talking about a few other different things. 
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