Well tomorrow is the beginning of the two days that determine whether or not i will be attending college in May. I am so nervous to fail yet i dont see the point of studying because what i kno is what i kno... and i think that will be enough. Pretty much i am sick of having two jobs and the two schedules running into eachother.. but i told myself i ( Read more... )

Well let me see i am at my sister celeste's house at the moment watching a movie. My email today was very rude... Syed kind of pissed me off and i think i had the right idea by not talking to him ever again, i think it's for the best. So when i visit D.C. in march i will not contact him. Jon and me are doing so good it's just too good to be true. ( Read more... )

well everything seems to have worked out since my last entry. The sober thing is doing well... and im just trying to work as many hours as i can to keep busy until i can go to school... i just cant wait to go to school, things will be so much better. i need to do something mildly accomplishing rather than serving other people... well thats about

A few days ago i opened back up a door that should have been locked, dead bolted and nailed shut with no key to speak for. But it's funny how alcohol makes it ok to take a sledge hammer and open the door back up. In the process of reopenment I hurt the one person i care so much about.. the one person who feels the same way about me that I do about ( Read more... )

Well hmm where shall i start... its been awhile since i wrote in here. I guess the most exciting thing to happen to me would be that i almost ran off the road into a tree but just went lik in the brush on the way home from my weekend job and messed up my car, it was lik a blizzard out side and i was on the expressway it was so scary. but i get it ( Read more... )

my new number is 842 9851

I GOT MY CAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I GOT MY LICENSE!!!!!!!!!!! life is sweet! and..................... i am very much in love. life is good. A special thanks goes out to all the people who hav been giving my self a ride to work THANK YOU!

well this weekend has been ok... besides of course i am so sick my throat hurts lik a bitch and i keep blackn out and not even when im drunk and yet i hav to work so much on the weekends. im sick of wrk 50 hrs and then really not having much to show for it cuz it all goes to bills neway! thank god i get my loan on the 16th so i will hav a car.. ( Read more... )

Well my mind has been made pretty much... i am done drinking... it's just a waste of time that i dont have much of neway. I am sick of not remembering nething or doing nething..... so i am glad i have two jobs.. this way i stay busy. but in the end whats all this work worth neway? we are all gonna bite the dust sooner or later.

well i havnt wrote in here i na longgggg while ( Read more... )