it is so mind boggling readin over my previous entries.... its been almost 3 years now since i've wrote. I wrote in my entries about all my big plans.... my ambitions for the future.. friendships that now are non-existent. Life is so fucked up. I ended up shooting heroin... wasting the last three years like it was nothing. Its weird after being in ( Read more... )

Well Saturday is my GED thing and it should be pretty cool. I am mostly just excited to see syed. We are gonna go to Cedar Point on tuesday so that will be sweet... i hope he doesnt get sick on rides.. well if he does i will sit with him. I am also excited to see my sister she is so proud of me and that makes me proud! well im just sitn at heidis ( Read more... )

Well i am completely away from him. He can finally never say hurtful things to me ever again, never make me cry again. He was drunk and yelling at me, saying its my fault he drank cuz we fought. He doesnt know what love is. He doesnt care to find out, perhaps he wont. i hung up the phone with him for the last time, syed was there to talk to me.. ( Read more... )

Well life has been alot different lately.. some good... some bad... oh well its not good to focus on the past. Went to carries last night with megan... her and sean were fightn so thats not cool, fightn is never cool. I take my placement test in a few days.. i dont even kno what classes ill take.. only two for now. hopefully i dont have too much ( Read more... )

Well my last night in DC has come to an end. It was wonderful. I have thought alot over this trip, about my future, about my past, about what the hell is my life supposed to be about? I want to continue to be friends with jon forever... but friday night he got wasted and said alot of hurtful things to me that didnt really make sense, and that he ( Read more... )

Its that time again. the time when i wonder where the time went. What have i done with the last year of my life? If i died this year would i die feeling accomplished? The answer is i dont know where the time has went. And of course no i would not feel accomplished. it is going to change.

Well it's awesome being on vacation. It's awesome actually having stuff to do. Well my last entry was a fluke, jon and me got in yet another fight, and im just sick of fightn. So were flying solo now. Sucks once again i fell in love and POOF! its gone. my love life is like a magic act except lacking even the slightest entertainment. Im definetely ( Read more... )

I leave tomorrow morning! it feels great to know i will be out of the town of waterford for a bit. My probabtion officer would have let me move there, but i cant run away from my problems anymore. I will work them out and leave with a good feeling when i do leave. i just need a break from them. I will stay here go to school then transfer to D.C. if ( Read more... )

Well I greatly enjoyed my valentines day. Unfortunetely the day that followed is another story. Once again life has proved to me that hardly anyone in the world is worth trusting... that everything you hold dear to you... or even sum lowsy bullet holes on your fucking dent of your car!!!... should be locked up in a safe and only let out when you ( Read more... )

Well its over with and unfortunetely i wont find out shit for another two weeks!!!! well i am pretty optimistic it was pretty easy as far as im concerned but i dont want to jinx myself. Sometimes i think i thought too hard about the questions when really it was obvious, cuz if u really think about a question there are many answers not just one! ( Read more... )